DIFFICULT IS NOT AN EXCUSE!
Even though I’ve squeezed that excuse to death at this point, I’m still holding on to it as if it’s still alive and serving its purpose for me. Fact is, I’ve just chosen to not overcome the difficulties involved with the logistics of writing from my prison cell, the editing process, and posting my work. I’m going to attempt to write a true “blog post” today. No more excuses or ignoring this aspect or part of my job anymore. Yes, I said job!
See, I have a full-time job, and a part-time job, and the training/preparation time involved with doing those jobs while I’m serving time in prison. These jobs have nothing to do with the prison in any way, shape, or form other than me not being a problem for the prison at all. All of this work is what I’ve chosen to do right now in order to be that much closer to my success in the free world once my sentence—sitting in a prison cell 23 hours a day–is served. Everything I do in prison simulates my life being lived out there. Out there, there’ll be no excuses. If I don’t manage or balance the challenges I’ll be facing properly, Bad Mike, in all ways, shapes, and forms. I won’t have the luxury to ignore any part of what I’ll be doing, period!
Anyway, all of that will be another post for another day (if I continue to work all aspects of my job, regardless of any difficulties of course). Fact, I haven’t posted anything for a while. Don’t judge me, you haven’t either! Another fact, I can, I will, I did! I just said, “Don’t judge me.” Now that brings me to the point of my blog post today, Judgement.
I’m sure you’ve heard people say, “We’re all God’s creations” right? I have, and I happen to believe that as well. Believing something and acting in accordance with your beliefs, is two entirely different things. Using what I’ve written so far as an analogy, just because I want to do something doesn’t mean it’ll get done. I certainly cannot represent myself as being that thing I believe I am, or that I do whatever that thing is I want to or intend to do either. Just because I “think” I can do, or be whatever I am, doesn’t mean I’m all that. It doesn’t mean it’ll be either. It’s simply a goal.
Actions are facts. Words, plans, affirmations, etc… are good ways of staying focused on your goals, but they are not facts. They are indicators of what one can expect from another. All of this absolutely serves a positive purpose in the wide world of accomplishments & judgments. All of these things are subject to judgment as well. If what you say, think, and feel matches up with your actions, then you’re pretty much that. What others think of that, well, that’s up to them. If you can tolerate that, that’s up to you. And there’s all kinds of motivational factors, cause & effect issues, and consequential dealings involved with all that too, but this isn’t the point of today’s blog post either.
You reading today’s blog post proves I’m doing this part of my job today. It’s matching up with what I said I wanted to do. I believe I can overcome difficulties and I am. Will I continue this pattern? You’ll have to keep checking in on the blog to see, I guess.
Okay, back to judgment. Since we’re all God’s creations, have you ever questioned your own beliefs after meeting someone? Have you ever met that person that you just know, for a fact, they were created and brought into this world by the Devil himself? I have, and many more than just one I’m sad to say. Do I judge them? Absolutely. Should I? No. Have you ever asked yourself why not? Why not judge them? A lot of people say they don’t judge others, and that’s true. Some don’t judge others at all. Some only judge others when the “others” are doing something that affects them, or they’re doing something they don’t agree with or like. Are you judging “them” or not?
That’s the question I present to you all to ponder, contemplate, meditate, reflect on, or what & however you process your environment this day. I just want everyone to measure themselves this day. Are your actions matching up with your words, feelings, the things you think, your beliefs, or your goals?
I find that when I judge others, usually I’m faced with a situation where I’m having to take a good look at myself in the mirror right afterwards. It’s kind of uncanny or some would say karma, I guess. I say, “Judge yourself first and judge what you’ll personally gain from the judgments you hand down or convict others of before you go judging.” Some of us judge or convict people within ourselves. And others do that to some publicly without any evidence to support their judgment. I can’t stand the ones who do that based on “gossip evidence” alone. Oh, there are so many of those out there. Hell, in here too!
Ponder this, judgement is cyclical.
It always circles back and bites you straight in the ass in some way, shape, or form. And, as all of us being God’s creations, you must force yourself to find the good in anything or anyone before you point out or convict it or the other one of being/doing bad. You just never know how God may be working in others to also work in you, simultaneously. Even if we see others from the perspective of them being reminders of what we don’t want to be or become.
I see drug addicts every day. I thank God that I am not one. I’m extremely grateful that I’ve been able to witness the things I have. They’ve helped me in more ways than I can convey with words. I hope my actions express that gratitude within me. I choose not to point out their behaviors to anyone but them. I choose not to gossip, but to help if it’s wanted. If I’m not helping, I should simply shut the f…up, period. That’s gossip if I don’t!
Talking about things you’re not doing a single thing to help with or correct is gossip, gossip, gossip, flat out! If you’re a gossiper I hope you’ll gossip just as freely about all of your flaws as you do others.
I’ve got to get back to work. You know that job, the other aspects of my jobs that I choose to do because I don’t want to ever be again what I once was!
Living a life judging others conceals the fear you have of you being judged yourself.
Be you!
Bad Boy Mike
